I want to be worshiped.I want to be loved and adored by all. People would seek my council& flock to my temples.Men would throw themselves at my feet and beg for me to make love with them.Hot oil Massages would be given and offered by my attendants.
There would be dancing and lovemaking and great feasts; there would be no hunger, pain or suffering. Music would play throughout the day, my temples would be filled with music and art and love wonderful love. Everyone would worship love. Love is permante. It would be THE only religon. To love each other and to have joy in our lives. That would be heavenly. People would realize that they are all human!!!! Not just little puppetts who have to go to war with each other. They would love each other as human beings. No one would care about what the other person looked like beacuse they would realize "Hey you are just like me!!"

I had a wonderful dream a few nights ago about a Wiccan Church/Temple. It was completely for Pagans/Wiccans with a garden in the center with a large Celtic knotwork tree in the middle. The center was a mini outdoor garden. There were many rooms and meeting spaces within the temple that were used as healing rooms, places of worship and a large party room. (Yes we love to party with good friends.) The best part of all were the people. Everyone was tollerant of each other and they were all so happy to be together in one place worshiping thier respective Deitys'. If only this is a reality.

I am truly greatful to earl for protecting me all of these years, and for healing me.
I guess that i really have fallen in love with him after all. He is probably the most romantic person whom i have ever met. well...sometimes. I am greatful for him after all. he is my hero. After all of the problems that we have faced and after all of the demon attacks he is still with me and he still is in love with me. And I, Him.It still melts my heart seeing his worried glance when i had been poisoned. I was laying on his bed,feeling like i was dying, and he was right there, my angel,he was holding my hand and wispering to me to hold on and not to give up. Gods I LOVE him for that. Love is so weird.
I have learned something new about myself while i am here in Philadelphia.. I am a love worshiper. I worship love. I do understand and accept the Deities, however I mostly worship love and joy. Now if only there was enough love within the world for me to feed upon.
(yes similar to a Vampire)

Now to the fun.
For this years Yule I really want a narrow Bulgari Save the Children ring.I have been trying to saved up for one all year and the deadline for it is December 31 2009. Well, I tried, and failed to buy it.
Next conquest!!

So next week I will be creating some new silly and horrable signs made out of wood, paint and wire.
Some will have movie quotes printed on them, others will have quotes from rings, tee shirts and tv.
If anyone wants to see one or wants to see my new Oujia board altar, please let me know.

I'll see you all in Chicago soon!
Love& Blessings,
Thornmallow

A question before I leave for my sun drenched trip to NYC!!!
1. Why do Idiots wear their pants below their waists??? They look soo Stuipd! NO ONE WANTS TO SEE YOUR UNDERWEAR !!!! PULL UP YOUR PANTS ASSHOLE!!!
On the bus, at Epic Burger, on TV It just looks so STUPID!! I hate marky Mark for starting the "Trend"!!

I hate that trend.
Anyway I will be in NYC for at least 2 days and Philadelphia for about 3 or so days.
hmm the last time I went on Vacation, I preformed my own Hope tour similar to a musical rock and roll tour.
I am planning on purchasing some vamperic wooden jewelry, and maybe have a little naughty fun. The bad news is that I Probably won't be able to take half of my ritual tools with me since my mother is a HEAVY bible thumper. Oh well. at least I can take a few spell books and some minor tools.
I am getting good at teaching people about some basic facts about Wicca. Some day I hopefully will become a prestist!

Happy Halloween Everybody!
Halloween was long, tiring and yet fun.
I went to my step grandmothers funeral and it was a Baptist one. Not one woman preist.I felt ailenated. Why are all of these men standing there shouting and singing and all of these people worshiping through them? Anyway the good part came when I just settled down and enjoyed the fact that I was in a warm room with a dead body on Halloween. It was kind of comforting. I think it is beacuse I read the book "Dion Fortunes Book of the dead." It really helped me to understand death and love and life. Now that I know what death really is I know how to truly live my life. After that we went to the grave yard, I placed apples on some of the graves. We were in the Burr Oak Cemetery!!
The graverobbers cemetery!
After that we had drinks at home and I put on my costume.
Later I went to ritual with my husband.


Also It is fun watching true blood, twilight and vampire diaries. It is great watching the vamperic and supernatural blend into real life so seamlessly. Becomming a vampire would be intersting.probalby full of hot wild sex...oh wait that's my life now.
I miss my youth a bit. I miss being able to look at Halloween through a childs eyes.Getting candy, trick or treating, making a candy potion.
Not really knowing the world and making up my own stories. Listing out side on the porch late at night when i should be in bed for the witches to shout and to dance. waiting for the full moon to rise and for the wherewolves to come out and hunt. Yes my life was one big movie.
Anyway it was a fun childhood.

Today is rainy and cold outside and I just woke up in Earls arms thinking "What if he isin't the one and i am just dating him beacuse he is right here right now"? Especialy since he has NO SENCE OF DIRECTION!! ahh oh well. NO one is perfect. I think I may go to the candy shop today for a smiley face lollypop.
I never did get thoes lemon drops that i wanted.

Yes that is correct I have finished another book! This is my thiry seventh archive diary and it is finshed!! Earl and I were just handfasted in August..We had a nice mini honeymoon. We went to the beach,attended a few festivals, and had a great time at the Celtic fest.
I left home earlyer beacuse of my dad. He is becoming more and more abuseive every day.
More later!

I Miss Light Of the Moon!
If only everyone did not fight that would have saved us!
Grrr.
I miss the company, I miss living out my dreams with the rest of the "club". I miss being with my friends!
Of course NOW i have a lot of time off and time to myself.
Drat.
Anyway a friend of mine from the ice cream shop at work gave me a small bottle of fairy dust from the Rennisance faire!
She knew that I am the Fairy Goddessmother of Navy Pier so she found a gift for me! Thanks to David and Amanda now I have two!! Thank you!!!!
(my poor boyfriends' house!)
I am currently writing a book about wizzardy for fun so if anyone has any great stories please send me some!
Thanks!
Blessed be,
Thornmallow

Last night was awesome! Earl picked me up from work and we instead of going out to the concert that i wanted to go to we went...........home. Yes ladies and gentlemen for my first date with my future husband I went to his house; for desert. We ate chocolate, strawberries and whipped cream, in bed under the glow of 25 glow sticks. Earl Taped up 25 multi colored glowsticks to the ceiling! We later made love and soon I was dozing off in his arms to the sounds of the chemical brothers one too many morings. This morning I am at Mike D's house watching wrestling...how boring. However he is alowing me to play on his computer so that isin't so bad. I could do without the screaming though. I'm still writing Katrinas book by the way. So far she is still searching for her lost family. More later!

I am in my useual little hole in the earth, the same place where I normaly take my dirt naps. Lately I have been so freaking depressed and angry it is so weird. I an normaly not like this anymore since the divorce of my parents. I went to New York City finaly last month. Earl and I are doing well and my ex fiance even wrote to me. I am slowly retriving all of the stuff that was stolen from me last year. My second job is treating me very well and I am Still working despite the job crisis. Speaking of crisis I am also still working on that zombie book. I'm not giving out the plot line however it should be finished.....eventualy. So life is pretty slow for me right now which is great because I am enjoy it more. I just want to be out of this slump... being depressed for no good reason is no fun.

OK so Obama won, whoopty doo. I'm tired of all of the Black people who are worshiping him like he is a god. I know that he is supposed to be the presedent however he is also HUMAN!We have to rember as americans WE as HUMAN BEINGS have responcablites too. (Yea I know i can't spell Fuck off) And one of thoes responceablites is to keep our enviorment CLEAN! No more dumping garbage everywhere. No more leaving oil on the grass, no more leaving toxions out where your fellow human can breathe them in. As Humans we have the DUTY to clean up and keep healthy our planet. It is everyones problem. White, Black, Orange, red, yellow,purple, pokadot And argyle and indigo.. ALL OF US HAS A responceablity to CLEAN UP OUR WORLD!! Plant a tree! clean up the beaches! DO something people! I want to step on a glass free lawn this year!
I am also pissed off with Oprah, Why the fuck is she worrying about her weight and broadcasting it across the globe? Ok you are fat. Big fucking deal. There are starving children across the globe who WISH that they were in your shoes! That they can be rich and eat whatever they wantand they can have food and clean water. Be glad that you are healthy enough to do something with your life OTHER than worry about your weight. I'm fat. I know that i am but do i whine about it? NO! I use it to my atvantage. SOmebody robbed me last year, and I used my weight and dead weight to AVOID BEING DRAGGED INTO A VAN AND POSSABLY BEING RAPED!! So as you can see and read from this post that being fat Is the LEAST of your worries. Be Glad about your weight others may not be so lucky.
Thank you.
You are now free to move about the world and breathe clean air.
Blessed Be,
THornmallow

What the hell is going on between Earl & I? I love him a lot however he and i drive each other crazy. I guess we do live together. I drive him crazy, he drives me crazy... But somehow we make it work. Yule was fun and so was new years. I have to admit i am greatful that we are together, after years of being alone and without the love i really needed (just pure true love in general) I could be sitting here alone again for yet another weekend.Wondering when and where my next fix was going to come from. Maybe that is what i am addicted to? Love.. Everybody is addicted to something right? I don't need sex, and i don't really need anything phsyical i just need unending love,and for people to stop abandoning me. However all good things must come to an end We can work this out. So the fighting can end between us. It's just a matter of who wants to step up to the plate first?

Ok so i have been having dreams about a locket. it has a crest on the front and a ruby in the center. I bought one recently and so maybe it has something to do with the dream. I Miss earl I wish that he was here.

I am back from my one day whirlwind tour of Ney York. I went with my mother, and Grandmother which was fun and a bit distracting since I had to convince them NOT TO CROSS THE STREET WHEN THE LIGHT IS RED!!!!! Yea they are nuts in thier young ages.. Ahh parents.
Anyway Earl & i are doing stupendously well, I am so in love with that man. He is probably everything that i have ever needed and wanted in life. He makes me so happy just to sit with him wrapped up in his arms warm safe and happy. aaaaaah. Oh and I love waking up beside him and brushing the hair back from his eyes.Kissing his warm curled upper lip, and touching his soft fluffy wings. ahhh. (Yes he is an angel)

Ah if anyone knows about how to depossess someone would you please call me? Lately my friends have become a bit demonic.Literaly. The first occurance happened in June when a deamon attacked me, now it is occuring more frequently with my friends. My boyfriend was attacked recently once (Very Creepy). The very last time he was attacked he almost looked like a beaten up chew toy!

No new news about our muggers. Bastards.


I am still in Maroland D.C. with mom, having fun. see ya in a few weeks!
peace love and elbow grease,
Lauren

Hi Everybody! Here is the news for September 21,2008
On the week of August 24,2008 I was recently mugged. I was walking home, about three bocks away from my house when a blue stripped van pulled up next to me. Two teens jumped out (one was wearing a white tee shirt and blue jeans, hair was twisted into twisted dread locks and his hight was around 5'6. The second assailant wore a short hair cut, white tee shirt 5'9',blue jeans and a round tatto on his right arm.) with lazer pointer guns drawn and they robbed me. I fought back and i was knocked to the ground. I suffered a brused arm, bloody wrist and scrapes on my fingers.
Stolen items: One coffin backpack (valued at $9.00 USD.)
Debit card
Shore bank information
1 copy of Irish American News paper
truman College Id
$20.00
Lipstick
one "follow true love ring"
Pentical Necklace in the shape of a coffin

Amanda T. Would be so proud of me!
I am trying penitration for the first time! I have always been afraid of sex, penitration, and so I gave up the hope that it would ever happen. Then Earl came along,he was very patient with me and soon...Orgasim! The best thing is I am married on the astrial Plane!
Earl decided to become handfasted with me in the astrial. Which means that his heart belongs to me, and mine his. He is so good with me. He guides my soul around on journeys and on quests. We travel everywhere we want, he defends me from Demons, he even saved me once from dying in the astiral. I wnat to keep him!! I want this tall sweet, yummy man all to myself!The funny part is is his mom is a racist, however he defends me from her so that is a plus on his side. His dad said "So son, you like dark meat hun?"So i guess when he has me for desert later he can say "yum! tastes like chicken!"

Bill the evil magican hates me. One morning I woke up and kissed my beloved saying I love you rather than good morning.(Yea Im being lazy so sue me).
I showered dressed and left home to go to work. I'm working and my coworker says to me "Yea Bill really hates you! He hates your work ethic,you leave the store too often,You leave too long,you are weird, yea he dosen't like you at all. When he starts I just cover my ears." WOW. Nice guy.
Oh well, someday he will die of a heart attack and no one will care.He eats too much Mcgrase anyway.

Well, i am off to the beach with my loving wonderful boytoy& later to sleep. I could use some more sleep.
Later days!

I had Sex.. lots of sex, naaah actualy it was only twice. We broke a few condoms, broke a few hearts... Man she's hot. Amy is hot..
ok enough of my wet dream, anyway I am at Hoggwarts now and I am so tired. Earl had me up all night last night (untill 3). He needed a lot of healing and help. We had a mini ritual which he thanked me for! That's a supprise.
Ambrose made me assistant Buyer! wow. So now I can go to K-town to buy jewelry for him whenever. nice.
I miss the internet cafe. I want to go back but since this death threat against me has occured I can't go back just yet.
Plus Earl won't allow me to beacuse of the threat. He's scared that he may loose me.. Hell after what happened on the train during the fourth of july I'm supprised that he is still worried. Speaking of trains I will be going to see him soon. I am so sleepy. I missed him this moring. He left early before I woke up and i woke up alone. ehehehe He owes me kisses for that!! Things are going well between us. We supprise each other at work/train stations, go on sushi dates, have wild incredible night and rituals and we just love each other and we are happy. As a matter of fact we are planning on having a special celabration this Halloween!
If I'm lucky I may be going to Tiffanys this week. Just for the fun of it.
Oh my friend Carlos is going to host his own concert soon at the House of Blues!! YEA! and he wants me to promote it! I miss everyone from the game room. I miss Dennis!!
sniff... I miss you Charles!

Sorry Mom!
I completely forgot what type of material I write here (yes that's possable) so After I emailed my mother a link to this site it dawned on me... BAD IDEA!

here is a clean version of my weekend.
Earl picked me up at work and we went straight back to his place despite the fact that I wanted to go ghost hunting. He wanted to make it home in time so we would not have to walk a long distance to his appartment. ooh hum.
Anyway my grandfather is moving in with us so I am giving up my office downstairs so he can have my room upstairs.
gotogo bye

Hi Everybody!
(insert hi Dr. Ned here...Thanks Homer!)
Well it is offical I am now the happy owner of a new.....................Boyfriend!
Yes i know that it is a supprise and all however I now have a real live boyfriend who is not all the way in another state/town/provence/world. His name is Earl and he has had a "crush" on me for a few years now. Anyway we have spent the past month together and have been almost inseperable ever since. Every week we are doing something new, having ice cream dates, or going to the feild museum, or taking the train back to his place on the fourth of July and kicking some perverts butt for feeling up women on the train. At one point (this is my favorite) he and I were spell casting and I became too invovled. He kissed me out of my little problem and said "come back to me, (kiss)come back to this time (kiss) come back from this pain you don't deserve,(kiss) come back to true love.Feel only this kiss and return to me." I have forgotten all about true love and all about my souls pain after my last failed attempt at love. I just gave up and hardened my heart. I locked away my love and happyness and just moved on in real life. Forgetting my hearts needs and just forgetting about love in general. That's why when he attempted to heal me last month, he collapsed. There was so much damage that was done to my system that his system over loaded and he collapsed. So now when he attempted to heal me (fourth of July weekend) He did a soul retreval ritual. Which not only helped me it also answered why I felt so much pain steming from my brain to my gentials when i am in deep emotional pain. It's effecting my chakrahs. Now he is trying to show me how non scary sex can be. Honestly sex is punnishment to me since it scares me so much. I don't like it or want it yet I am forced into it sometimes. I have got to stop putting myself into that situation. However if i don't I do know that people will become bored with me and move on. So the mess is left there for some one else to clean up&carry the torch. I hate sex i really do. Some times it can be good like marathon night. other times it's scary. Oh well. I really need coffee
Oyasumina say!

Hustion we have a boyfriend, a robbery, and import shop and more.
Earl and I are officaly dating and he wants to keep it as an open relationship. I don't beacuse i need a committed one to I think just to feel secure. more on that later.
One of the carts at work as been vandlized (robbed) so i am nancy Drewing that one.
and I went to the oak park import shop just for the fun of it.
aaah the life of the thorny

Happy Birth-week Ishmel! My favorite Ninja DJ.


I have a major headache from the pirates at work.
Later today I ma planning on making a London Broil possably at Earls. I am dating again... strange I know. However this time I am NOT investing anything into it. I will merely Just...I won't invest my heart into it.
This week I'm in a new mood for once. I have been hanging out with a few friends from the Alley Shop On Belmont, and I am in a Londoners mood. Kilt, punk rock look, Devil may care attitude ( not really i'm still the cute little bubbly girl I have always been) Oh! and I scared a kid! Some kid was out scamming people with a fake flyer. So when he walked over to me he of course asked me for money, and I said "you do realize that that is illegal right ?" "What?" What you are doing is Illegal and I can have you arrested for scamming people. "It ain't a scam." "Do you really want to be arrested?" "ok Are you a cop?" "Yes." "Oh Ok uhh Sorry baby." "I am not your baby, and that's 'Mam' to you." "Ok Mam." He said while walking out of the door. Sometimes i love beeing a fake cop.
More Later.
see ya!

I think its weird that humans persicute other humans just beacuse they love someone else. Yes I know that a book written in all of the languages of the world said "thou shalt not" however why is what a book says so important that we miss out on the basic human value of Love? Humans who have relationships are doing excatly what we should be doing we are making and sharing love. Maybe in the sexual sence, and possably in the literal sence however who are we to judge? We are not Goddesses or gods. we cannot controll all of life 24/7. So why do we push our agendas upon others whether or not they want to hear it? is it beaucuse of corporate greed or of social understanding? You decide. Write back.